About being mad at God, Sorry about your father
my son died in May, my wifes terminal cancer has returned, and my grand son who spent the weekend with us is CV19 positive-- there by exposing his grand mother (my wife) to it. Death has pretty much always been and will always be except for God.
Deaths' has certainty been a part of my last years. We can thank God for the things we are greatful for simple things in life. Or the big things. This my wife second cancer and she has a nerve disease that has put here in a wheel chair. Me currently before I go to bed I am just grateful for another day with her and my grand children. i only asks God for another day with her as I have but one thing to do, be faithful ; faithful to God, and faithful to my wife. I am sorry for your father, truly and since my brother has had cancer twice, and both of my parents had lung cancer I can feel with you. You can be PO'd at God He is tuff enough to take it, He is God after all and He does make a difference. But death is not going away until God takes it away. Him I trust